I was getting ready to get my kids into bed, when I got a text from a dear friend of mine, Caylan. She lost her baby. He was 33 weeks, and stopped moving. She went to get an ultrasound and they found no heartbeat. She was scheduled to have a c-section and wanted me there. I was lucky that my husband was home, and I rushed the 1.5 hr drive to her hospital and waited. I wasn't sure if I would be capable to capture what she needed. I was a nervous wreck that I would be too emotional and upset her. I didn't know if I could do it... but I knew I NEEDED to do it. So.. I rode in silence the whole 1.5 hrs. I prayed. Over and over and over. "God give her comfort in seeing her son, look over her as she grieves. Give me the strength to capture these moments so she will forever remember him in pictures. God, just be with us tonight" and he answered. He gave me strength. He gave me courage. He was with Caylan the whole time. He was with us.
There are moments in your life that change your mindset, and who you are. This was one of them. It changed my perspective on everything, and it changed me as a person. I completed my application for the Now I Lay Me Down To Sleep Organization. I know it'll never get easier to do these things, but I'm praying that if I get accepted into their program, I can help bring comfort and capture moments for families and make a difference. I feel like this is what I am meant to do. Here are some pictures of Mr. Abel James Ake, who was born straight into God's hands.
here is a link to donate to Caylan and her 3 other kids to help her ensure she gets proper time to grieve and doesn't need to rush back to work. If you feel it in your heart to donate, please do <3